My Why: The Journey to Choosing Explant Surgery | Transform Tuesday

Welcome to the season and self Love podcast. I am your host, Namibanks, and I am thrilled to have you joined me on this transformative journey. You see, every day we dive into a powerful conversation about self discovery, healing and empowerment. This podcast is brought to you by ax Naomi and Elevate Me self Discovery. What we believe that loving yourself is the first step to live in a fulfilling life. You can expectsightful discussions, practical tips, and inspiring stories. Plus were occasionally. Welcome special guests who will share their unique perspectives on self love and personal growth. So get comfy, grab your favorite beverage, and let's embark on this journey together. Because it's time to embrace the beautiful person that you are. So let's elevate our lives one episode of the time. Now, let's get started, all right, Maybe for people, we'll welcome to another transfer to say here on listens in a CIP Love Podcasts. I'm your host Naomibanks, and today today is different. Today I am pulling the curtains back completely and I am sharing something so deeply personal, so vulnerable that I am right now, I'm nervous. I'm shaken, but I am so full right now. You know, as I've prepare to speak these words to you, I'm prepared for well, I'm preparing for it. This is the beginning of the new July series called Preparing for Transformation, and I couldn't think of a more authentic way to start then by sharing my ride the deep soul story. Reason too, that's behind the reason of my choice to decide to choose expand surgery. Now, for over twenty years, I've carried breast implants in my body, twenty years of journey that started with one intention that has led me to a completely different destination. Today, I want to share with you my journey, not just the decision, but the why behind it. 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Were we talking about everything you love, sex, relationship, couch differences and so much more by bridging the gap between them Paul and we even talk about the spature Monday. You need to stop by me and dot com my pod as well as the METG group. You have some amazing guests that come home you'll never know. Just make sure you tune met Thursday nine six pm siercent of time. Go to axlam dot com and tell the Nami Seacher All right, well, welcome back again. This is a very a very personal every every series is personal, but this one is truly personal. For this series in July, it's all about preparing for transformation and if you guys have been listening from you know, the past few months since that I decided to have an explant. And what is an explant and explant is removing the breast implants that I've had inside of my body. I've carried these implants. I carried implants in my body for over twenty years. It's been about twenty I want to say twenty two years. My baby be twenty three this year, so twenty two years I received. I got my implants in January of two thousand and three. I replace them with a nuther. Well, you know, let's do this because I'm not about to get deep in down. But before we do this, before we really get into it, I want to kind of ground ourselves before we get into this deep conversation. All right, So, at this moment, can you find a comfortable space, a quiet space wherever you are, and if you can just close your eyes and take a deep breath in through your nose, exhil through your mouth. Now, I want you to feel your body grounding into this present moment. Imagine a gentle, supportive light that's surrounding you, filling you with clarity, courage, and love. Now, as you continue your breathing exercise, I want you to open your heart to your inner wisdom. You know that voice that always guide in your path. Now this time, when you breathe in, I want you to breathe in strength. And I want you to breathe out doubt now this next birthday, and I want you to breathe in clarity. And when you exhale, I want you to exhale and breathe out confusion. And I want you to place your hand onto your heart and feel it beating. This is your life force, this is your truth, this is your power. You are exactly where you need to be to hear what you need to hear. Now, well, took to take one more final deep breath, then what's hell and when you are ready, gently open your eyes. All right, my beautiful people. First of all, I want to again say thank you for just being here with me and sharing that space in that moment with me. And if you are new here to the Season and Stuff Love podcast, it's something that we do every day Monday through Friday, just to help ground us before we get into the top of your hand. All right, So today's today's message. You know I started saying it before, but this started over twenty two years ago. Twenty two years ago. I was thirty one years old when I decided to have my first implants. I was married. Actually at that time, we were going. We were separated. Let me get that we were separated. I had just had my middle baby. She was I want you lie maybe she was about six seven months six about seven months when I decided that I was going to have surgery. So let me tell you going into that and making that decision, and I just want to be honest. I want to be very honest. It was based off vanity, it was based off body imaging. For me, I was modeling. I was just my singing career. I had that going. But that was a part of my mind. And after having my second child, gravity wasn't doing too well with my body. Now, if you heard the previous podcast, I said that I was in the eaty BDTD committee, right, and then I had my baby at nineteen years old, my first child, and you know, I got a nice little fullness going all right. I had a nice little fullness, but as I tend to go back to my actual weight, they were a nice side. So now ten years later, fast forward ten years, eleven years later, I had my second child and with her, I was on bed rest the whole entire time. So when I decided that I was going back into modeling, I was doing my singing career and I remember looking at my body and I wasn't confident in my body. So I felt that if I was to get in plants, that it will help me in my career with modeling and my career with sinking. It will boost my confidence. And I remember sitting in the plastic surgeon office looking at before and after pictures, and I remember just dreaming on how this can change my life. I just knew that I was about to be the next best thing going because that's what my mind took me to because it was all about vanity. But the thing was is me imagining that it did change my life, but just not the way that I expected. You know, for years, the implants served as a purpose. They helped me build a career. They boosted new confidence for me. They became a part of my identity, and when I transitioned over into the adult industry, they were a part of my brand. When I built my media empire, they were a part of my image. But here's what nobody tells you about making decisions. From places of insecurity. You see, those decisions have consequences that ripple through decades of your life. So I say about I want to say about four or five years ago, things started changing. I began experienced symptoms that doctors couldn't explain. Severe vertigo just a few years ago that would leave me bedridden for days, headaches so intense that I thought I was losing my mind. Brain fog when I tell you about this, brain fog so thick that I couldn't string sentences together. And y'all know I love to talk, right, I love to talk. I used to be fluent to my with my words, you know, just flowing music. And I think the last draw of me deciding this is when I went to when I went to a neurologist and I was going for my m I was going for my results of what I thought was the MRI. But come to find out is that he had someone He said he didn't do it, but someone had scheduled me for the wrong testing. So I actually got a CT scam. And that let me know that he wasn't a doctor for me because he wasn't paying attention to what I said or what my primary doctor was telling him the sentence, and everything was going on. We were trying to figure out what was going on with my migraines, but he kept wanting. They kept putting me on different medications, and when I when I was sawing, it was like a string of Okay, you have to do this. You have to take these amounts like this this medication to qualify for this medication that might help you. And then you have to take this to be able to qualify for this medication that might do the trick. And then you have to take this for amount of time to be able to get this one that it has been known and shown that it has been able to help people with migraines. So if you just heard me right now, I had to go through four different medications to get to the one that they said can possibly help with my migraines. Right mind you, they still haven't went in and did the full testing of everything. So I remember leaving that office that day, confused, broken, overwhelmed, like, oh my god, what the hell is this? When I say I've done everything possible, I've done everything possible. Even the medication that they gave me didn't help my headaches. It just it caused other things in my body to start aching and hurting, sharp pains going up and down my body. It was just it was crazy, which was already happening anyway, So you're just they just gave me something more just to enhance those ailments and pains that I was happening in my body. And I remember going into my Golden Rose room. Well, first I went to the herbal store and to get some herbal stuff, and then I remember going into my Golden Rose room and I remember sitting there and no, Lie, I was in tears because I wanted to be whole again. I didn't want to be this this the shell of a person that I'm down more than I'm up. My body is down more than I'm up. And I know spiritually where I was at, you know what I'm saying. I knew I was like ready to go, like this is been the most gratifying time in my life that I accepted of who I am and where I'm going in life. But my body was saying something totally different. And I remember sitting at the altar and I remember that prayer and I remember asking God to just let me know what is happening with me? What am I supposed to do? And all I heard was that you need to take him out, take him out. And I sat at my altar there for an hour, if not more than an hour, and I remember coming out of there, and I remember sitting down and talking to my husband and I said, I think it's time for me to take him out. Now. Let me share with you that I had thought about this years ago, about taking him out before, but then I was still full blown into my career. Even on the podcast, I still wanted that image to be seen. I wanted to be, you know, with nice breasts, you know woman because in my mind, in my mind, one of the reasons why I got the impuls and I believe I shared that yesterday with doctor Will what we talked about it is that it made me think that I was more of a woman with full breast than I was without him, if that makes sense. So through that whole process is me trying to mentally, emotionally and spiritually just embrace that I am a woman without breasts, if that makes sense. And so I remember that was a part of this breast implant group, and I remember going in, so let me let me go back. So I went to my doctor I am a primary doctor. The week after so he was like, so, you know, how's everything going, how to go with the neurology such as such stuff. So of course I gave him. I told him my concerns or my neural just but I told him, let's not do anything else anymore. I don't I don't want to pay any more money for anymore any more tests. Let me do my due diligence. Let me take accountability for what I've done to my own self, and that was to have implants in my body. I said, I'm going to go do me a little bit more research. I'm going to go talk to some doctors and I'm going to remove these implants, and then once I hear from these implusts, then I will come back to you and let's see how I feel that. And the look on this doctor face was like, WHOA, So you really don't do that? Yes, I'm really going, Well, how do you think you're gonna feel like you remove? I said, my prayer is that I will feel great, And he said I know I'm talking about you know you're looking the way that you look. And I honestly said, at that time, I don't care I said, I don't I don't care if you can imagine how I feel when I want to work. My mind is going, I have so many ideas, but my body won't allow me to get out of bed. When my feet I swollen, my legs I swollen, My body is swollen, headed, pains, dizziness. When I say about disabling, it's disabling. I can imagine what people feel like that are on wheelchairs. That I that I paralyzed from the neck down. When your mind is going and you want to do something, you want to tell your body to walk, and your body not walking. So then when I thought about it, thought about you. Remember years ago, you wanted to be a part of this, you wanted to remove that, and you were in these BII groups. Going there again, and see what those synths is Now as I go down to symptoms list, I check every single one of the symptoms, every single one, every single one, and I said, yeah, it's time. It's time for them to go. But also, what I didn't share with you is why I was sitting at my altar so long. It's because I was thinking them because they are the very reason why I am talking to you right now without me choosing to put these imputs in my body. I wouldn't catapult in my career modeling the adult industry to be able to build this platform like this. And I know it's a timing thing because right now I am like eighty percent whole. Right now, I'm eighty percent hole. And once I take these boobs out, there's one ten percent, this other ten percent, that's twenty percent that's gone. I know I'm I'm going to be complete. I'm going to be full. And the wisdom, the spiritual wisdom that I have, the self love that I have for myself. It doesn't matter what my what I look on the outside. I know who I am on the inside and it shines, it shines so bright. So when I came to that conclusion of Okay, it doesn't matter what I look like on the out side, I know who I am. I know what my spirit is, I know what my intentions is, I know what my heart is. It doesn't matter what I love like because I'm not trying to I'm not trying to appease or seek validation from anybody on the outside of me. I have my family, I have my friends, I have my community. That's continued to build, so I'm no longer searching for that, and so when that then I knew that it was time. So then the stress came from how can I pay for this? Because it's not it's not cheap. It's not cheap, it's very expressive. So it's like, how would I be able to get the doctor in order the insurance company do this? And so as I was going through the research and looking at everybody's story, it will take a while because you would have to get the doctors and neurologist. So now you gotta go through more tests. And even though I have insurance, it's still a co paid to each one of these tests that I have to do in medication. And it was like it was time. So then again a few months ago, when I was at my altar doing my morning meditation, y'all know again, that is where I received my clear as downloads, and in the stillness in the sacred space, everything truly became crystal clear. It became crystal clear. It's like I saw myself as I was before my implants, as this young insecure looking for something outside of myself to make me feel whole. And then I saw myself now spiritually mature, deeply connected to my purpose, but still carrying these foreign objects in my body that no longer aligns with who I become. And in that moment, I knew, okay, let's a litle fact at it. Don't just even make a difference on how much money it's gonna cost. They don't. You got it, so go get it. But this is a thing. Knowing and accepting are two different things, because let's be real, these implants has been again a part of my identity for over twenty something years, I want to say twenty two years. They've been a part of my livelihood. They've been a part of my confidence, They've been a part of myself, my sense of self. And this is where that fear came in. And that fear was real. Yes I made that decision, Yes I knew it was clear and it was there, but that human part of me was there. What would I look like without them? I'm so happy that I went through this whole spiritual journey because even though that little fear came, it flickered in my mind, I was able to allow it to go away. Went away. And also the question in my mind was how would people see me? I don't careous. I was like, I've allowed people to see me with makeup. I've allowed people to see me do the most heinous things if you look at what society will say. But one of my biggest concerns is what I still feel, Feeline, And I know I am, and I remember sitting there, I remember going through each one of these questions in my mind, each one of these feelings in my mind. And as I got deeper into that fear in that moment, it was like it was so many questions and clarity for each one of those deepest, fearest moments that I had, there was an answer. But not only was the answer, there was a vision for me. It was a vision for me. And I know you asked, and so you you wasn't a shame of it, you know, I went through all of those emotions, and honestly, I'm gonna say this, I think there was no shame. There wasn't any shame about me deciding and choosing to put the influence in that. I understood why I did it. I understood why I did it. If I would have had all of the information about how toxic that can be to my body, then I probably wouldn't have decided that, but ultimately that was my choice. And I'm not ashamed of the choice that I made. Okay, that's me. But did I feel guilt, Yes, guilt hit me, and it hit me. I was going through I have already decided that I had my my appointment plan, my surgery is paid for and full. And I was looking on in a group and it was a post that was up about breastfeeding. And I remember with my last baby, I had my implants in and I remember asking my then doctor then about my breastfeeding. I'm not able to do it, and she was like, yes, it will be fine, you know, want nothing to come to it. And I had saw this video of this lady saying about her breastfeeding her baby and one of her breasts had ruptured. It was like a puncture in the breast and some of the silicon had came out into her body into her system, and she had been feeding her baby toxic toxicity, toxic milk had got into it, and so they were very ill. The baby was very very ill. And I remember in that moment feeling very guilty. It hit me, and really I had tears in my eyes because I knew I had breastfed my youngest baby, but even going back twelve almost thirteen years, I remember talking to my husband and saying, you know, I don't feel comfortable breastfeeding her. I think I'm only going to do it for a minute, a little bit until I figured something. But I don't feel comfortable. And with my first baby, my first two breast fed them for a few months, at least between three to five months, but well, my youngest one, I only did it for about a month if I even did a whole month, because it just didn't feel right. I just felt like there was something foring in there. I don't know exactly what's happening, what's going with it, and I want to make sure that she's as healthy as possible. And so I moved away from that, I you know, moved her away. But now looking back, I said, I should have really listened to my body and not did it at all, because she does have things, you know that happened go with her. You know, with her, her skin is kind of nice, it's not as smooth as you know, I would like it to be. You know, her eating habits are you know, kind of off. She has some things that's going on with her, and I could be the very reason of why that's happening. I ain't even know it could be I am, you know, And that guilt set in me for a minute, and I want to be honest, it's still there right now. But it's a little different to guilt. It's a little different because I'm doing something about it. Not only am I going to take the implants out myself, but I'm using my platform to build awareness around brisk implct illness. But not only that, but I've opened up my platform to bring some more amazing women and some more amazing professionals that have this expertise to be able to share their stories and share exactly what it is, you know. And so, as I said, with these fieldings feelings, I did my research, I talked to other women who had made the journey, and my why really became more crystal than ever that this just isn't about removing the implants for me, That this is about reclaiming my body, That this is about honoring the woman who I've become spiritually, emotionally, mentally. But this is about removing the last barrier between me and my complete authenticity, that is my why. But that is one of my wives. You see, I spent over a decade doing radio, doing podcasts, and especially the past few years, talking about self love, talking about authenticity, talking about removing the mask that we wear. But I've been carrying around a physical representation of a decision I made from a place of insecurity. How could I continue to preach about loving yourself exactly as you are while carrying around proof that I didn't love myself exactly as I was. So my why isn't about shame or regret. My why is about completion. It's about coming full circle. It's about taking everything that I've learned about self love and applying it to this final piece of my journey. You see, when doctor sus, my surgeon, told me that I recommend that you seek therapy because you will go through something mentally with this, you know, And I knew he was right. But I also knew that I was ready because see, this time, I'm not making a decision from a fear of insecurity. I'm making a decision from love and from wisdom. So let's talk about a ripple the fact. Here's what I want to want you to understand about finding your why. It's never just about you. My decision to share this journey publicly, it isn't just about my healing. It's about every woman who's considering implants because she doesn't love her body as it is. It's about every woman who is suffering from unexplained symptoms and wondering if it can be connected to her implants. When I said in my altar and I received those down lows for this entire podcast series, I knew I had to share my journey, this journey in real time, not after I've healed, not after I have all the answers, but right now, right now, in the messy middle of it all you said, because transformation, it isn't pretty, is not Instagram ready, but it's vulnerable, it's scary, and it's sometimes lonely, but it's also sacred and it's powerful and it's so very necessary. So my wife is bigger than me. It's about breaking the silence around breast implant illness. It's about challenging the beauty standards that tell us that we need to alter our bodies to be worthy of love. It's about showing women that it's never too late to choose yourself. But let's talk about the deeper truth. Let's talk about the deeper truth of it all. That this journey has shown me that I've been carrying around with me not just silicon bags for twenty years, but I've been carrying around the energy of a fifteen year old girl, a twenty three year old girl who didn't think that she was enough. So every time I looked at in the mirror, part of me has been seeing myself through the lens of that young woman insecurity. And every time that I've spoken about self love, there's been a tiny voice whispering, But you change your body because you weren't satisfiable what God gave you. So removing these implus isn't just about physical help, though it's important. It's about the energetic alignment. It's about finally completing something totally. So it's for me so I can totally be able to say I love and I accept myself exactly as I am. It's about stepping into my power as a fifty soon to be fifty three year old woman who knows her worth, who trusts her body's wisdom, and who isn't afraid to make difficult decisions service of our highest good. See there was a lot of lessons that was learned. You know, this journey has taught me so much about decision making, about courage, about the difference between choosing from fear and choosing from love. You see, over twenty years ago, when I chose implants from a place of I'm not enough as I am, to today, I'm choosing my explan from a place of I'm exactly enough as I am, and I want my body to reflect my truth. You know, the difference is so profound. See, when you make a decision from love instead of fear, everything changes. The energy is different, the confidence is different, the peace is different. But I also learned about the power of timing. I wasn't ready to make this decision five years ago, shit, or even two years ago. But when you truly ready, when your why is clear and your heart is aligned, the path opens up before you. Doctor sus he appeared exactly at the right time, a surgeon who understands that it isn't just about removing the implants, but it's about helping women reclaim their pot bodies in their power. So real fast, I'm gonna talk about the spiritual dimension, so y'all know I don't do anything without considering a spiritual aspect of it, And this journey has been very, very deeply spiritual from the very beginning. I do believe our bodies are temples. There are vessels of our souls to do the work in this world. And for twenty years I've been carrying four four objects in my temple, not because they were bad or wrong, but because they served a purpose during a certain season of my life. But seasons change, and I've grown the need for anything external to make me feel whole, a worthy, or beautiful. This excellent journey, it represents a homecoming, a return to my original design and hance by all of the wisdom and love that I gathered along the way. So when I removed these implants, I'm not going to go back to who I was twenty years ago. I'm stepping into who I've always been underneath, whole, complete and perfectly exactly as God has made me. And to those who are considering implants, if you're listening to this and you can sit in getting them, I want you to hear me clearly. I'm not here to shame you or to tell you what to do with your body, because your body is your choice, always but I'm here to ask you to examine your Why are you considering this change because you genuinely want it or because you don't think that you're enough as you are? And are you making this decision from love or from fear? There is no right or wrong answer to this, but there is truth. And whatever your truth is, honor it fully. So if you decide to get in plus, do your research, find a surgeon who cares more about your well being than their profit, have a support system in place. Know that this decision will impact you not just physically, but emotionally, energetically and spiritually. And know that whatever you decide is not permanent. That you can always change your mind, just like I did. That's the beauty of choice, that it is always available to us and to those that's considering explant. And if you are listening to this, I want you to know that you're not alone, that the journey of removing implants is just as significant as the journey of getting them. Give your self permission to grieve. Grieve the identity that you're releasing, the comfort that you found and how your body looked with the impluse, the years that you might feel that you've lost to illness or discomfort, but also give your self permission to celebrate. Celebrate your courage to choose your health over society expectations. Celebrate your willingness to prioritize your well being over your image, and celebrate that the woman that you're becoming Now, I want to keep it real, So let's do that. Let's do that. Let's keep it real. About the practical aspects of this decision. Financially, this is an investment. Insurance often doesn't cover explain surgery, so I am paying out of pocket. But I refrained this in my mind that this isn't an expense, It's an investment in my health. It's an investment in a piece of my mind. It's an investment in my future. And professionally, I have to consider how this might impact my brand, my image, my confidence on camera. But here's what I realized. My brand has always been about authenticity and transformation, and this journey right here is the most authentic thing that I've ever shared. Personally, I've had to have conversations with my husband, with my children, with my close friends about what this means and why it matters to me. And that's why it's so important of having that support system. It's very crucial. So my surgery is scheduled for August. Between now and then, I'm doing everything I can to prepare physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I'm doing visualization exercise and I'm imagining my body healing. I'm returning to my natural state. I have Doctor Real right there in my pocket where I can speak to him anytime that I want to. But if it's something that you want to do and make sure, I say, work with a therapist who specialize in body imaging and medical trauma. I'm also journaling about my fears when they do arise, and my excitement I'm creating. I've created a post surgery care plan that includes not just physical healing but emotionally in spiritual support. And I'm documenting everything because I believe in the power of sharing our journeys, not for attention or sympathy, but for connection and healing. And I won't lie to you. There is some fear. I am scared. I'm scared about the surgery itself, about the recovery, about how I feel about my body afterwards, and I'm also scared about being vulnerable in such a public way. But my faith is so much bigger than my fear. My faith is so much bigger than than the scare that I have. My faith in my body's ability to heal. My faith is in my decision making process. My faith is that this is the right choice for me at this time in my life. Fear for me is information, not instructions. It's telling me that this matters, that this is significant, that I should proceed with care and intention. But it's not telling me to stop. And I understand what the bigger picture is. This expect journey is is really a bigger picture. It's a bigger journey where I didn't even think I would ever be. The crazy thing is that this little journey of mine that I'm sharing, it's taking us back on a journey to back to ourselves. It's going back to our truth, to our power, to our original design enhanced by our experiences. How many of us are carring around things physically, mostly mentally, and spiritually that no longer serves us. How many of us are holding onto identities, relationships, habits, beliefs that made sense at one time, but they are no longer making sense, that they are now blocking us from our fullest expression you see this surgery. For me, it represents my willingness to release what no longer serves me, even when it's scary, even when it's uncomfortable, even when others might not understand. So here's my invitation to you, my beautiful listeners. Is your explant and I'm not talking about breasts? What is your explant? What are you carrying that no longer serves you? What decision are you avoiding because it feels too big, too scary, or too uncertain. Maybe it's leaving a job that's draining your soul. Maybe it's ending a relationship that no longer healthy. Maybe it's moving to a new city, starting a business, or having the difficult conversation that you've been avoiding. But whatever it is, I want you to connect with your why. Not the service level reasons, but the deep soul story of the why. You know that why that makes your heart rate and your spirit sore. Because when your why is clear, the how it becomes easier, and when your why is bigger than your fear, courage finds you. Now, I'm making a commitment right now to you. Now, I'm going to share this entire journey with you. The preparation, the surgery, if they allow me to bring the cameras in the recovery, the emotionals up and down, the physical changes, and the spiritual insights. And not because I need your validation of support, though I appreciate them both, but because I believe in the power of witnessing each other's transformation. When we share our journeys, we give others permission to embark on their own. When we speak our truth, we create a space for others to find theirs. You know, this podcast has always been about real transformation in real time, and this is as real as it gets. But I also want to take a moment to express my gratitude to these implants that I've been a part of my journey for over twenty years. They serve the perpose. They helped me build a career, gain confidence, and navigate a certain season in my life. I'm not removing them with anger or regret. I'm removing them with love and appreciation for what they gave me, in recognition that there are a season that is complete. This is what mature decision making look like. It's honoring what was while choosing what's next. And I know a lot about your vision. You know, I see myself after this surgery, not just physically, but energetically. I can see myself standing taller, speaking my truth more boldly, loving myself more completely. I can see myself helping other women navigate this decision, whether they choose implants or explan or something else. Entirely. I can see this experience becoming a medicine for the collective. I could see myself at sixty x seventy if Lord is willing, grateful that I had the courage to choose my health and my authenticity over comfort and being familiar. You see, that vision is what carries me forward when the fear gets loud. And here's what I know for sure is that this decision will impact more than just me, my daughters, our watching my granddaughter. One day, we'll hear this story. Women all over the world who listen to this podcast are taking notes. So when we choose courage, when we give others permission to choose courage, when we prioritize our well being, we model that for everyone else around us. So when we make difficult decisions from love instead of fear, we shift the energy for an entire collective. This is bigger than breast implants. This is about women reclaiming their power, their bodies, their right to change their minds, their permission to choose themselves, but also about men reclaiming your power. It's about anybody making a choice, whether it's an explent of implants, a booze, or it's about an explan of what things that no longer serves you. It's about making those hard decisions to want something different and better in your life, or even become whole and complete, whatever that looks like. But before we close, I want to just share some practical wisdom for anyone who is facing a mazing decision. First, get clear of your why. Not that the reason you think you should have, but the deep, the true why that resonates in your bones. Second, do your research, talk to professionals, talk to people who have walked this path. Educate yourself fully. In third, build your support system. Surround yourself with people who will hold space for you on your journey without trying to talk you out of it or into it. Fourth, trust your intuition. Your body knows, your spirit knows. Sometimes we just need to get quiet enough to hear what they're telling us. In fifth, give yourself permission to change your mind. What made since ten years ago might not make sense now, that's not failure. That is not failure, that's growth. And as we close today's episode, I want to leave you with a meditation. Been guiding me through my decision and I know this is something that we did in the beginning of when I first started this podcast, is that we were doing too And I thought today where I took this month's series, that we should do an opening and then closing meditation. So, if it's moment right now, if you will just close your eyes if you can, and place your hand on your heart, I want you to feel your heart beat steady, stronger. Wise they are You're a truth detector, this is your compass, this is your guy. Now I want you to ask yourself, what decision am I avoiding because it feels too big, because it feels too scary? What am I carying that no longer serves me? Now? I want you to breathe into that question. Don't force an answer, just create a space folk whatever wants to emerge. Now, ask what would love choose? Not fear, not obligation, not what others expect, but love. What would love choose? Now trust whatever comes up. Your heart knows the way. Now take one more deep breath in, and when you are ready, open your eyes. All right, my beautiful people, I want I want you to know that sharing this story with you has been one of the most vulnerable and empowering experiences in my life. That this isn't just about choosing to expect, expect journey. It's all about us choosing courage over over comfort, over authenticity over approval, and love over fear. You see, your transformation might look different than mine, Your way might be completely different, but the courage it takes is the same, the love it requires is the same, the faith it demands is the same. So whatever you're facing, whatever decision that is calling you, whatever change is asking for your intention, you have everything you need inside of you to navigate it with grace and wisdom. Remember, this whole entire series is about preparing for transformation. So tomorrow, next week, we're going deeper into this topic. Continuing with it, I'll be sharing practical tools for preparing mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and for major life changes. So until then, I want you to sit in this question, what is your why? What is your decision? Is it, So is your soul asking you to make? What decision is your soul asking you to make? And what transformation is waiting for your permission to begin? Trust yourself, my beautiful people, trust your journey. Trust that you are exactly where you need to be to take the next rights. Now. I love you, I see you, I honor your courage to transform. Have a beautiful, beautiful day, and remember you are worthy of every good thing exactly as you are. Have an amazing Tuesday. Thank you for joining us on this journey of discovering and empowerment here at the Season and Self Love Podcast. Remember, embracing self love is a continuous journey and we're so glad to have you with us. So if you enjoy today's episode, please leave us a review and don't forget to join our community on Facebook at Season and Self Love connect with like minded individuals who are also on their self love journey. Now, if you have any questions or topics that you'd like for us to explore, we love to hear from you. Email us at Season us self Love at gmail dot com and let your voice be heard. So until next time, take a moment for yourself today and remember you are worthy of love, joy, and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. A m.